i had to make nazeer go to the hospital today. he took two viagras this morning because he said he wanted to surprize me. well he surprized me all right because after we ohh la la for two times this morning he still had a e reck tion almost to 3:oo that is almost 8 hours. he said he was in no pain or anything but i still thought eight hours for a erektion was way too long and not normal at all. so i made him go like a baby i had to go with him. it was sort of funny but serious according to the label instructions. so i nagged him til we went. i guess it was pretty serious because they immediately admitted him. well they gave him some stuff and he shrunk although he does not shrink much because he is a normal to big male but at least he did not have that erektion any more. it was like pulling teeth getting him into that inspection room or whatever they call it. and i had to practically slap him to lower his pants so the nurse could look at his private part. i think he sould not take any vigra for a few days. hahahahahahahaha oh well i will hve to visit with the jiggles family for a few days until nazeer is better.

hello i have had a very unusual week. one of my weekly visitors came over tuesday and brought me two cases of canned peaches. well i like peaches but wow 48 cans is a lot even for me. well that was not his appointment day so i told him he had to come back at the regular time. i told him if he brought me a can of cherries i would make him a cherry pie. well early this morning he came over and brough two cases of cherry pie filling. well today was his regular time so we ohh la la. that is kind of odd. i bet i am the only one ever to ohh la la for peaches and cherry pie filling hahahahahahahahash that is very funny to me hahahhahahaha well now i have to have a cherry pie for him when he comes over next week. he is nuts if he things i am going to make him 48 cherry pies hahahahahahaha i am sure i will gain ten pounds this week. i think you can guess that he works for a super market.

hello i have had a bad stomach all day. i have had to visit my bathroom several times today. i had a large king size gentleman this morning who put his hand right in the flat of my stomach as he got up and i thought i had a crushed gall blatter for sure hahahahahahahahaha well that was not so funny at the time hahahahhahahahha anyway i wonder if that is why i have a bad stomach. probably not. i think i got a bug or something. anyway i learned to always get off the bed before the guest does hahahhahahah so i guess that was a valueable lesson. well bye bye and i hope i dont croak in my sleep. see ya tomorrow maybe if i am still breathing

hello i had several people ask me about my lactating statement which i probably should not have mentioned in my blog but oops too late. anyway i will tell you this to get it out of the way then we will not speak of it any more. i share with everybody and that is who i am. and as far as lactating goes most of my special friends like that very much. even two of my older female friends like that also. i do not know why but my friends are all older people in their sixites with very high pressure jobs. i did not plan it that way it is just that way. they come to my house to relax and get away from it all. i ohh la la with some of them but there are many times we do not ohh la la at all. we just talk and visit skin to skin. there is no pressure there is no time limit there is no a jen da and there is lots of petting and there there it will be ok type talk. many men simpley relax with mouth to breast and i rub their heads and their backs and hum to them. it is not at all uncommon for them to fall asleep on my chest. it is ok with me if that is wht they want to do. i do not push them one way or the other. i had thirteen visitors last week and i ohh la la with only four of them and the rest was just petting and touchy feely and visiting with the mouth to breast thingee. i think i am a type of pressure relief valve or something like that. anyway that is the answer. besides they all trust me completely because i do not betray them in any way. i hope my friend does not mind me writing this in my journal because this is part of the letter i wrote him. anyway he likes me so maybe he will not mind. bye bye

i am not very smart. i so want to me smart. but i am not. i did not finish high school and that is on my mind almost every day. i ran away for personal reasons before i finished school. some one asked me why i write in my blog. i guess i am trying to prove to myself that i can do something worthwhile. i like to write. but mainly i have to prove that i am not totally stupid. i think i have a interesting life. and i want to share it with everyone. i know i am different than most people and i do things many people do not do. but i am who i am and i do not think i am a bad person. but my lack of education really bothers me. i do not understand a lot of words people use. i just nod and shake my head like i understand their words but i fake a lot. almost all of my special friends are older gentlemen who all have college eductions and have important jobs. i would like to be that some day. oh well i would run away if i could. i did it once. i wonder why it is so hard to run away now. oh well oh well oh well