hello everybody
i have had a good weekend. and i am tired. last week some friends of mine came over and wanted me to come to a weekenders party. i used to be part of a weekenders club when i was dancing at the club and back then it was important for me to party all the time. but i eventually got tired of that and calmed down a little bit. anyway we used to have a get together every weekend at a local hotel and usually lots of people came and of course we did what you think a weekenders club would do. actually no singles were invited but i guess i was special because they always wanted me to come so i did. maybe it was because i am beautiful hahahahahhahahahha just joking. anyway i gave in and went saturday night and i met a lot of people i knew plus some new people and i guess there was about 25 couples there and of course i was the only single person there so i didnot have a partner but that ended quickly. well we all met in this big rented meeting room and had lots of food and i ate like a oink oink and someone started playing cd's and the lights went down and people started dancing and getting to know each other. well the president decided it was going to be keys in the hat night which is not really my favorite but i decided to go ahead and par tis a pate since i was already there and at midnight all the males when to their room and someone got there room keys and put them in a big hat. then the girls got to pick a key and go to that room. well of course there was one problem in that i did not come with a partner so that means we were one person off so that meant there was going to be a threesome in one room. oh well i was not the one so i did not have to worry about that. actually i do not like threesomes very much. anyway i got the key to room 1231 so i troted up there and actually i was sort of nervous or maybe i was just excited i am not sure. well we are not allowed to turn the light on or not even talk becaus it is supposed to be a totally surprize ohh la la which actually is the fun part because you do not have the slightest idea of who you are with. well i stubbed my toe in the dark as i was taking my underwear off so that possibly gave me away because i screetched hahahhahahahhahah well i almost broke my toe so dont laugh hahahahahhahah. besides the guy left the chair in the way and i almost fell over the chair before i could even get to the bed eweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. so one stubbed toe and one almost broken leg later i finally made it to the bed and oh my gosh was he ready or what. mr willy was as hot as a curling iron. i think mr willy burned my leg just by rubbing against me hahahhahahahhah just joking. anyway i had to really work at it to calm this guy down or it was going to be going going gone before i had been there 90 seconds. you males are get excited so easily. and that is not really fair to the females. anyway i tried to rub his back and i tried to do the kissy kissy thing and i tried to do touchy feely but this guy and one thing on his mind so i just gave up and miss priss took over. i think this guy was a newby and not a full time member of the club because he did not show much consideration. i have always been able to guide the males by their little noses but this guy was totally unwilling to play by the rules. i was just about to walk out on him after a hour and i think he knew it so he changed tatics and began to kiss miss priss so i did end up with one really big orgazum. i enjoyed it i admit but i usually prefer mr willys action but anyway that was how it was. so i ended up sweating quite a bit so i guess it was successful. the keymaster came and got us at 4:00 a.m. and i never found out who that guy was. i have no idea. i think he was youngish simply because he could not control himself and was not considerate. he did not have much hair and had a little pot belly and a big nose. and wow all that seman i never saw so much in all my life. anyway that is all i know and i could not match him up at breakfast the next morning. anyway the key master took us back to the meeting room at 4:00 a.m. and broke out the blue light and i was drenched in male liquid from head to toe even my hair lit up like a 100 watt light bult. i looked like a christmas tree. i have to admit i looked very funny in the dark so i laughed with everyone else. you should hve heard the girls talking til breakfast. it sounded like a chicken coop. there were alot of very happy and satisfied females there. anyway after breakfast we simply went home. and that was that.
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it is a clear cold night. the sky is crisp and the stars are twinkling. a few minutes ago i watch a big fat hoot owl on the top of my barn. at first i could not tell what it was until my eyes got used to the dark. but there he was. i could hear his deep hoot hoot hoot and i could hear another hoot owl answer him in the distance. and then he hoot hoot hoot again very deeply. i watched him for a long time. and he flew away. my barn was alive with that hoot owl on top. now my barn is just a building. strange how that hoot owl changed that barn. i will think about that for a long time.
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someone on aol asked me this morning what i do for a living. well i thought it was quite clear but maybe not. i do not really have a full time job. i used to work in a gentlemans club as a entertainer but i quit that job. then i worked at wall mart for a while but i hated that job. i do entertain at bachelor parties probably three or maybe four times a month. that pays pretty good. i charge 750 for the first hour and 450 for the second hour with a two hour minimum plus all the tips i can get. well you are probably thinking about my special friends that come over. well they are just friends. i have known them since my dancing days also one or two from when i worked in a mens health salon which was my first job i ever had. i have 24 friends in my address book. i have known all of them for several years. it is a closed address book and i do not allow any more into my book. most of them come over regularly and i fulfill their fantasys. that is what i do. i like to call myself a fantasy entertainer but i make no money from it. i fulfill their fantasy because i love each and every one of them. i know them inside and out. i know their weaknesses and their strengths. i know their secrets and i know hopes and desires. we do lots of talking along with their fantasys. we are all very good friends. most of them stay a hour or two and then we say goodbye and they go home to their wives very happy. and yes of course i am naked in most of their fantasys but that is ok i do not mind at all. i do not ask for payment because they are my friends. i fantasy for them for free. if they offer me money during our visits i refuse it. as far as i know all their wives know about me. we talk about their home life very often. they all love their wives. i am just a friend to them to ease their frustrations. since i do not have a job they know i can not buy things and can not normally make my house payment so usually one of them will make my house payment for me and i do not even ask for it. others might buy me things for my house such as furniture or tv/s or stuff like that. i never tell them to buy stuff but they know to do this because i do not have a job. i do not think i have made a house payment in three or four years. i can not think of a single piece of furniture i have bought in my house because my friends are so nice to me that they just buy all my furnature. i am very lucky to have such nice and generous male friends. if they buy me a extra nice gift or furnature or make my house payment i am always sure to return the favor with something extra special when they come to visit me. they never leave disappointed. it works out quite well and my bachelor party money is just enought so i have some spending money. most of my friends are in their sixtys and are business men although i entertain two females. they are all well to do and remember how it was when they were younger with no money so most of them hellp me out a lot with things i need. i am quite secure and happy. sometimes miss priss gets tired becuase of all the attention she gets but that is ok because i have lots and lots of all ter na tives so that is not really a problem. anyway that is how i live and it works quite well.
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i have not been feeling very well. i have been depressed. i did not take my crazy medicine for a few days because i am stupid and i have been down in the dumps. i have peed in my bed two nights in a row. i am 26 years old and i peed in my bed. and that makes me very sad. i had a guest over today and i started crying right in the middle of ohh la la. i think i scared him to death because he did not know what was going on so he left in a hurry before he could climb the mountain and after he left i shut myself in my closet and cried for a hour. i do not know why i get this way. i guess it is just because i did not take my medicine. i hope in do not pee in my bed tonight. it is heavy on my mind. i am to old to pee in my bed. but i can not get out of this mood. that bird keeps circling over my house. and i can not hide from him. i painted my wrists a while ago. i painted them red with nail polish. i have 154 stitches in my wrists from when i cut them a few years ago. i must focus on them because i do not want to do that again. but that bird will not fly away. sometimes i get so lonely. something is wrong with me and do not know what it is.
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