i slept in nazeers bed earlier today. i took a long nap. i kept waiting for nazeer to pull the covers back and get it. but he did not get in. i waited for him to put his hands on my breasts and the flat of my stomach. but he did not do that. i waited for him to kiss my neck but he did not kiss my neck. i waited for him but he never came to bed. i am sitting on his bed right now with my laptop. but he is no where to be found. it is cold outside and the wind is blowing hard. i think it will be a gray winter.

Well i got up at 4:00 today. My eyes just popped open and i got up as simple as that. I got on my jogging suit and i was out back by 4:10. The moon was out so i could see pretty good in the dark. All my sports bras were in the dirty clothes so i went braless. Well I learned that lesson a while back so i did not jog today i just had a fast walk. My boobs are so heavy that it is a real pain to jog wihtout sports bras. Anyway It was quite enjoyable because the air was very crisp and clean and cleaned out my head in about a minute and there was not a hint of wind. It was so still. Wow there is so much nature out even at 4:00 in the morning. Early morning birds were chirping already and lots of hootowls and screech owls and whiperwills. I saw two racoons and i think i saw a skunk with that big fluffy tail. The cows were all awake and watched me as i passed them in the pasture. Actually walking is just as much fun as jogging. I love the outdoors and nature. It is so peaceful and calming. I just got back a few minutes ago. i had turkey yesterday for thanksgiving. becca backed out of coming over so i had thanksgiving by myself in the den. i watched willy wonka and ate turkey and cranberrys. just me and willy wonka hahahahahhahahaha i like the little oommpa loommnpa guys. one of my friends took a bunch of pictures of us in my heart shaped tub last month but i just got some copys Monday. There are three of four i can share with my friends soon as I can figure out how to blurr his face out. I am not very good at this blurring thingee. I can not send the other pictures or we would all go to jail hahahahahahahaha sorry those are just for my album. anyway happy thanksgiving.

well bad news for everyone in my area especialy you guys. i read in todays newspaper that my old club was raided yesterday. 31 dancers were arrested for prostituon and lewd behavor. i am guessing but it looks like they arrested every dancer there. well i knew it was bound to happen some times. i always hated working the vip room but i had to so i could keep my job or they would fire me. anyway looks like the hammer dropped on a bunch of dancers. they had all there names in the paper but i did not know a single one. well it has been several years since i worked there. anyway becca did not work that day so she is lucky she is not in jail, i guess somebody complained about the vip room. probably some males wife hahahahhahahah sorry it is not that funny if you were arrested. anyway that is what i read in the paper. i have not talked to becca but a short time. i am sure she will have more news when she comes over. i wonder if they will be out of jail for thanksgiving with their families. most of the dancers were married when i was dancing at the club. i wonder what their husbands are going to say when they find out their wives or girlfriends have been arrested for prostitusion. i imagine there husbands will be mad a little bit. males are proud. i doubt if they want to share there wives with strangers. it is not for me to judge. anyway bye bye

wow it sure is lonely here. the house on each side of me is now empty. three houses in a row and i am the only one here. nazeer has given me his house. i do not know what to do as far as the legal thingee. i have been cleaning his house like normal. both his cats ran away. i have been looking for them each morning but i guess they are gone. i have not had any appointments since nazeers funeral. so it is a little lonely at my house. the only reason i called this entry hootowl is that i see one on the barn. really no other reason than that

nazeer died this morning. he was 80 years old. i loved him.